I really identify with the emotional level of faith that God addressed, and that old wounds are in the way quite often. My partner doesn’t understand why I have doubts at all because he does, he keeps praying but its so nice to see there are others who have made it through and who feel the same way so thank you for posting this and the others who have posted too. Its such a blessing to know that I’m not alone, and maybe there are others who feel out of place amongst those who seem undeniably anointed

I just came across this website and I’m so blessed that I’m not alone. Been wrecked with guilt, shame, condemnation, and fear that I committed the unpardonable sin. I have been fighting the fears and doubts and thoughts as best as I could, reading the Word, praying, worshiping, but I feel no matter how hard I do all these spiritual disciplines, I keep feeling the accuser’s breath on my back telling me i’m a hypocrite and I can’t return back to the Lord and the Lord has forsaken me. I got so weak and filled with fear and dread that I stopped reading my Bible and praying as much. Just couldn’t pray. Just didn’t have the words! But what has been my saving grace is just being around other believers and most importantly, telling the Lord how I honestly feel and proclaiming Scripture to God, to satan, and to myself. Even if I don’t feel it, even if the reality of the Words don’t penetrate (or feel like they penetrate), just believe. And when you can’t believe, you ask the Lord for more faith! But in the end, you just believe that He will take you through. He will bring you out. He will show you. Just keep pressing on and pressing into Him. Sometimes you have to do what you gotta do — surround yourself with people of faith who can speak truth to you, over and over again. Pray with other believers. Look for others who are going through the same thing, or who have gone through the same thing. I was really blessed to have met so many people who have trodden this road before me and they kept telling me that the Lord is faithful. He WILL do it!

Phil. 1:6 – He who began a good work in you will be FAITHFUL to complete it!

Hebrews 7:25 – Therefore he is able to save COMPLETELY (or to the uttermost) those who come to God through him, because he always lives to intercede for them.

Remember that God is interceding for you even in your doubting! When you see your sin and shame, tell your enemy about the BLOOD of Jesus! The precious blood of Jesus cries out and declares us righteous in Christ! No matter what we are doing or what we are going through, CHRIST is the One who declares us righteous!

I think the Lord sovereignly takes us through these seasons of doubt, fear, anxiety, guilt and condemnation to reveal pockets where the enemy has taken residence. And the Lord wants to come into these areas so that we will be more secure in Him and in His Word. God’s Word is Life and He wants His Words to be constituted into our very being so that we live the Word of God and the enemy cannot shake us in that place of doubt or fear.

I’m going through the same thing. I thought I was very strong in the Word and apparently I was not! There have been pockets and pockets of darkness where I have believed in lies… and hidden myself in spiritual disciplines to hide my fear and shame and guilt. But the Lord wants us to KNOW DEEP WITHIN that we are His Beloved, He died for us! And those who know Him, truly know Him, must go through this period of “abandonment” to know that God NEVER abandons us even when it seems like He does. Cry out to Him and tell Him how much you love Him every day! Even when you doubt, even when you fear, even when you can’t stand the absence of His presence. He will come. He will come.

I hope you are doing better. As you said, we all have these doubts and satan is just a liar – he plays dirty so when you make a decision to stand in faith, he will come at you and attack you – BUT Our God is an almighty God so try these things:

1. Trust your faith and not your feelings – feelings are up and down, but God never is –> “Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever.” – Hebrews 13:8

2. Remember that the way we are and the way we think…God’s not like that!!! We think condemnation, He thinks grace…we think anger, he thinks forgiveness…we sees our flaws, He sees perfection – He made you and, who you are right now, that’s not a mistake – You are exactly as He wanted you to be, as He intended!!
“As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.” – Isaiah 55:9

God bless and remember, don’t give the devil a foothold!! Don’t allow wrong thoughts in, recognize thoughts that are not of God and chuck them away!!

“But you, dear children, are from God and have overcome them, because the One who is in you is greater than the one who is in the world.”

God loves you with a live that never fails. Really think about that. He will never leave you nor forsake you